A shift resists the tide resists the liberation of that which carries the heart, the blood which carries the feeling which conveys the capability to love and the capability to hurt. To fracture. More pieces, the edges of old obsidian crushing against new flesh born again, heartmeat ready to be ground again into oblivion. Does it exist to be destroyed? I am growing new parts for you to hurt because the old ones won't carry feeling anymore. The current cannot pass the black spots left by the surrender of the blood from these places, given up to malice and ghost towns of feeling. Raw skin, new. It hurts to grow and it hurts in anticipation of the hurt, so sensitive after so much quietness the faintest echo tears. I can feel it swelling like a wave having pulled back for so long and I stand as on the sand waiting for it to crash over me. Diamond splinters. The weakness disgusts that which I have grown malcontent with, the strength that keeps me whole but also alone. Numb or sad. Cascades or flat lines. Which is living, which is dying?